After Gabe got angry over nothing, he tried to forget. But he couldn't, secretly watching over for two years, he constantly checked to make sure Nicole was alive. He constantly abused himself to make up for the pain. Watching as NA shifted to Venkon, as MA shifted to Ivich. Seeing and hearing about people like Claus being used as puppets for Ambrose. Feeling guilty, feeling responsible, he attempted suicide thrice. And has various sleepless nights.

2/28/2016 - Property taxes

As judgement, I took a knife to cut my chest, it said ERASED for a year.

3/17/2016 - Suicide Attempt #1

Filled with self hate, I tried hanging myself, turns out I'm so worthless I cant even tie a noose.

So I cut my arm.

6/14/2016 - Encounter with a strange man.

A man in a smokey gray coat approached me and cut me open. I could only catch shaded off-white skin, I honestly dont know if this was Ambrose or a Venkon. Or just a local predator.

8/12/2016 - Suicide Attempt #2

Being a bit more straight to the point. I tried to overdose. I did pass out, but unfortunately I woke up.

8/15/2016 - Suicide Attempt #3

I slit my neck, but the loud ass thump I made caught my moms attention. I got stitched up.


They day I decided to name myself Cronus. To honor the dead.

3/23/2017 - Sudden Realization

I realised I need to do something, i might not have fought anyone, but I at least made others happy and hopeful.

5/22/2017 - Strange Light

I saw a triad of red glowing lights. They were huge and bright. It was 3am.

8/19/2017 - Preparation

Sephiroth lent me his sword. I gathered what knowledge I gained. I became mature. I returned to being the guardian I once was. I now weild that blade. Im now the age Nicole was when I left. I am now ready to Observe once again.

10/31/2017 - Second Chance

Please. Let me have another shot.

11/8/2017 - Suicide Attempt #4

Attempted again after I realized I'm worthless. Almost worked.